three in a row

Kalau bertemu denganmu semudah satu tambah satu
Tak ada lagi yang perlu kucemaskan
Tapi kalau semuanya semudah menghitung
Sudah berapa lama aku belajar
Hanya untuk mengerti dirimu?

***

Bukan aku yang meletakkan bunga setiap tanggal empat belas bulan dua
Bukan aku yang menyiapkan kopi di pagi buta
Bukan aku yang menulis surat cinta paling indah
Bukan aku yang pandai memujimu

Karna tanganku beku setiap melihatmu
Karna mulutku terkunci membisu memandangmu
Karna kata-kataku tak banyak untuk dirangkai
Tapi aku tahu dan bisa
Kalau hanya sekedar mengucapkan
Aku mencintaimu

***

Lagi lagi sebuah cerita sebelum tidur
Tak pernah absen kau bacakan
Sebuah dongeng Putri dan Ksatria
Cerita yang sama
Terlalu klise bagiku

Mungkin kau yang terlalu hambar membacanya
Sekalipun kau tuang berbagai raut ekspresi
Tapi aku bukan anak kecil lagi
Aku tak bisa kau bohongi
Kau tau, aku pun tau
Kita sudah hafal ceritanya
Kau Ksatria, aku Putri, dan dia si Bintang Jatuh

Aku sudah bosan
Coba kau ganti
Bisakah kau bacakan
Sebuah dongeng baru
Berjudul Putri dan Bintang Jatuh?

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another boring day :(

its not exactly a boring day actually, cause i'm having final test. just too lazy to study,lols :)
and considering that i haven't played looklet since months ago, i decided to create some looks, and just got an idea to post it here





it's inspired by gaga, and i never made a look like that before :p
and as usual, playing time with wardrobes, which i will never wear to malls.
just thinking how funny it could be, but hanging out with over knees and long jacket can be a little quirky, if u don't want to be the creepy ones



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THANKYOU.

Open your eyes, my dear..
Let the sun shines, warmth your heart..

It's monday morning..
And too far to think about holiday now..

Open your eyes,please..
And see how the wind heal your feelings..

you and I know
This is still a long, long journey..

And there are too much reasons to be said..
Cause a word will never be enough to explain part of it...

Let's dream for a while..
And forget this little journey of life..
Before it all rush you away..

I believe the rain is coming to greet you
After these long days of summer light..

Just wait, my friend..
Cause you never know when
The wind will blow you straight to His sanctuary..
Where only peace and love cycling around..

Just wait and believe..
And miracle will come through..

Nothing will be mistaken..
If we trust in Him..
Give your best effort..
for only Him we praised to..

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oldies, folks.



another boring day, being alone at home, so i decided to take a look at my mom's old stuffs and it all turns out to be like this. ;p

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PLAYTIME (:

well, i almost forgot when was the last time i played dressing up. here's some pict i found in my phone, and i know the quality is bad enough. :p i haven't take photos with my cam yet, since i didn't do it seriously.. i just got the idea when i'm bored studying, suddenly looking something in my drawer, and of course a phone camera is the simplest way to get those pict.

but next time, i'll use my cam again to take the photos. once again, sorry for the bad quality :p


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welcoming you 2010

firstly, i would like to say HAPPY NEW YEAR.. maybe its too late, but better than saying nothing at all right? XD
well, i haven't posted anything for soooo long. i really want to, but i'm very busy since i have to learn for tryouts, and test at school. and UAN will be on the 22nd of march, then still have to countinue for UAS at school. i believe that it happens sooo fast and i'm not ready for it, lol :p

but anyway, i'm trying to start writing again here, hopefully i can spend my time to write at least twice a month :).. and after i finish those tests, i promise to write this blog constantly.
and, here's some photos of my last year holiday, mostly my dad caught it, maybe its not perfect enough.. well, he just started to learn photography, and i really appreciate him if he wants to help me catch up some photos later :D

location : yangshuo, guilin, longsheng, genting highland, xing ping, hanoi





















well, i should study now, these biology things are driving me crazy.. and next hell week i must prepare for the second tryouts.. i promised to get a good score, cause i got sooo many bloody red numbers in my last tryouts.. hopefully this one might work well :) see yaaa .. xoxo

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for those matters

I don't remember
The last time I cried, I laughed

I put all the disappointments in my deepest thought, and left it behind somehow .. before the southern wind came and blew it away.. before my mouth spill it into kind of words..

I don't remember if I ever prayed to God, to send me angels with voices of heaven.. with warm voice, asking "are you okay? let me heal your heart..,"

and it all became blur suddenly..

I ran again, looking where I can find those voices..
I must have been lost somewhere.. feeling dead for days..
And awaken by creepy voices threatening my ears..

I lost tracks, I lost sounds..

I talked and blamed myself.. with tears luring my eyes..
I ended in another journey of collide..

So I wrote this, promising myself, for there will be no more words and voices...

I keep silence, I soil my heart with love and trust..

I won't be alone, for any matters. It's just a different unpredictable way of thinking..

I never know whether it will be easier, or even harder, with these unspoken words of mine..

And I won't ask..

»»»~

I'm still here my dear,
In a safe, warm place..
Where angels can't find me..

I'm here now..
Talking to you in distance..
Standing in front of the mirror..

I'm still here, not going anywhere..
I trust you for what I'm doing..
I believe my words won't go anywhere..

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feels like IT is

Sorry for the late post,all :p
School's still busy and as a third grade student, I have to deal with try outs, test,homework (of course it's sooo tiring)
Anyway, related to my older post (about my study in uni), I met this consultant yesterday,
Her name is Ms. Melinda. She gave me some test ( some behavior test and the other one similar to IQ test)
and I got the result yesterday.

There are 3 best career written in my result :
1# dentist,fashion designer,human resources
2# PR, or anything related to mass com
3# graphic designer,journalist,doctor

So, I decided to take medicine for my study cause the GTQ result also shows that I'n capable for that.
As my working memory test is 95%, it's good for me to choose medicine. She also added that I'm good with theory too. :)
Well, I hope I can get into uni which I want, there are 2 choices of uni and I don't know which one should I choose.
Between atmajaya and ugm inter :) let's just see!

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turning 18!

(not me of course, cause i'm still 16 now, :) it's one of my besties' bdayy)
location : kiyadon, fx. minus2.

p.s : since it's not 17 agaaiinnnn, so it was not a party. but we had a very great night with the girls, lols




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business or medicine?

evening, girls :)

i've been thinking of my study lately, and i'm so confused right now.
actually, i'm really interested for studying medicine, of course because my dad encourages me to.
but on the other side, my mum asked me whether i wanted to study business at shanghai, because she thinks that study medicine will need more time, and also i have to continue master program if i wanted to be a doctor :)
i already calculated it, and if i'm not wrong, it will be 9 years to finished medicine study (5+4). and i admit that it's not a short time. that means i could work and get a salary after i'm 27 years old maybe, lol. that's why my mom considered me to go for business rather than medicine :p

but honestly, she told me too that she's okay if i'm going to take medicine for my study, and she thinks it's great too. :) but i'm not really sure now, what should i choose??

my mum also said if i wanted to study business at shanghai, i don't need to finish my highschool here. i would be very happy to pass my highschool asap, since i'm not really prepared for final test. thinks i'm just too lazy to pass all of these highschool things. lol.



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still don't know where to go, what to decide, dear.

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