I don't remember
The last time I cried, I laughed

I put all the disappointments in my deepest thought, and left it behind somehow .. before the southern wind came and blew it away.. before my mouth spill it into kind of words..

I don't remember if I ever prayed to God, to send me angels with voices of heaven.. with warm voice, asking "are you okay? let me heal your heart..,"

and it all became blur suddenly..

I ran again, looking where I can find those voices..
I must have been lost somewhere.. feeling dead for days..
And awaken by creepy voices threatening my ears..

I lost tracks, I lost sounds..

I talked and blamed myself.. with tears luring my eyes..
I ended in another journey of collide..

So I wrote this, promising myself, for there will be no more words and voices...

I keep silence, I soil my heart with love and trust..

I won't be alone, for any matters. It's just a different unpredictable way of thinking..

I never know whether it will be easier, or even harder, with these unspoken words of mine..

And I won't ask..

»»»~

I'm still here my dear,
In a safe, warm place..
Where angels can't find me..

I'm here now..
Talking to you in distance..
Standing in front of the mirror..

I'm still here, not going anywhere..
I trust you for what I'm doing..
I believe my words won't go anywhere..

Sorry for the late post,all :p
School's still busy and as a third grade student, I have to deal with try outs, test,homework (of course it's sooo tiring)
Anyway, related to my older post (about my study in uni), I met this consultant yesterday,
Her name is Ms. Melinda. She gave me some test ( some behavior test and the other one similar to IQ test)
and I got the result yesterday.

There are 3 best career written in my result :
1# dentist,fashion designer,human resources
2# PR, or anything related to mass com
3# graphic designer,journalist,doctor

So, I decided to take medicine for my study cause the GTQ result also shows that I'n capable for that.
As my working memory test is 95%, it's good for me to choose medicine. She also added that I'm good with theory too. :)
Well, I hope I can get into uni which I want, there are 2 choices of uni and I don't know which one should I choose.
Between atmajaya and ugm inter :) let's just see!

evening, girls :)

i've been thinking of my study lately, and i'm so confused right now.
actually, i'm really interested for studying medicine, of course because my dad encourages me to.
but on the other side, my mum asked me whether i wanted to study business at shanghai, because she thinks that study medicine will need more time, and also i have to continue master program if i wanted to be a doctor :)
i already calculated it, and if i'm not wrong, it will be 9 years to finished medicine study (5+4). and i admit that it's not a short time. that means i could work and get a salary after i'm 27 years old maybe, lol. that's why my mom considered me to go for business rather than medicine :p

but honestly, she told me too that she's okay if i'm going to take medicine for my study, and she thinks it's great too. :) but i'm not really sure now, what should i choose??

my mum also said if i wanted to study business at shanghai, i don't need to finish my highschool here. i would be very happy to pass my highschool asap, since i'm not really prepared for final test. thinks i'm just too lazy to pass all of these highschool things. lol.



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still don't know where to go, what to decide, dear.

It's pretty clear that i really really love to wear ribbons.
any kind of it, whether it's a bandana, -or anything, i would love to use it for my hair accessories :)
somehow, it makes my fringe looks neat, so sometimes i use it to school too.lols
but i'm not going to wear the big one for school. just the tiny one.
here's some of it

Actually i never know about Jacko's song, and i'm not a big fan of him. At least, before he died. But after the ceremony and all the news coming on every TV channel, i just realize that almost all the people in the world adore him sooo much, even the prisoners. ;)

When i was young and still little kid, my dad watched michael's video clip. suddenly, i saw michael's scary white face, and i started to cry because of scared.
and yesterday, my dad bought a lot of jacko dvd. he watched some of them and asked me to joined him. at first, i'm not interested at all. but tried to be polite, i orderly said yes.


still don't know why-but the fact is michael succesfully influence many people with his stunning dancemoves, and make everybody crazy for him. Of course now i know how cool is his performance, and i really think he's a great person. He's not only good at singing, but also he has a big heart and concernity for people in the world. Despite all his controversy, he did a lot for charity too.

world tour, sweden 97

MJ's kids @staples center

paris, prince and blanket :)

Goodbye MJ . You'll always be the king of pop ;)

always, Victory

1. RED PERLLINI BAG @ og orchard road ($36)
2. WHITE CHARLES & KEITH BAG @ vivo city ($57)
3. MAXI DRESS @ this fashion store, orchard rd ($27)
4. PALE PURPLE MANGO DRESS @ mango, vivo city ($29)
5. SILVER SMOOTH PENCIL SHADOW @ maybelline, watsons ($11,5)
6. BLACK BROW LINER @ maybelline, watsons ($9)
7. No 1 EYELINER IN JAPAN @ maybelline, watsons ($20)

and also some other not-important stuffs that i can't even remember right now :))
this holiday is sooo fascinating . love em :D

finally, i come to bandung with my mum and my aunt. :))
though at first, my mum doesn't want me to go shopping again
*since i already bought a lot of things at singapore*
but when i came to rumah mode this morning, i found this loose dress,
and my mum said i can have it. :)))