jika saja hati bagai cermin
tak pernah menutupi kekurangan
ataupun menghapus noda dusta
sekalipun kau berharap untuk itu

tapi jeritan itu selalu ada
merefleksikan setiap sudut pikiranku
dengan bayang bayangmu semata
yang selalu menghantui tidurku

jeritan itu tak bersuara
teriakanku hanya memecahkan tangis
setiap malam kuingat namamu
menghiasi seisi dinding kamarku

sekali lagi kualunkan tangisan hujan
di sela sela hembusan angin malam
membuat semuanya bertambah dingin
begitu pun dengan diriku

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seandainya waktu dapat kuputar maju
seandainya hatiku bisa mencair
seiring berlalunya hari hariku
aku hanya ingin merasakan kembali
satu titik pantulan
hadirnya rasa cinta di hati ini

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parah parahh.
masa tadi gw maen cuma dpt 5 perak.
harusnya klo dtg k rmh2 dpt nya 20 perak.
hux.

mana brg2nya mahal2.
mau ampe kpn ngumpulin duit sgitu?
ahhh. parah nehh. maenan apaan.

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i started to <3 november!!
ga nyangka deh tere baik skalii
memberikan istirahat 4 hari buat murid2 nya
ihihi.

wlpun tetep aja peer terus mengalir.
tapi gpp. kata bu frida
"anak tere ga dkasi peer tambah bodoh.
anak penabur ga dkasi peer tetep pinter"

haha.
jgn mau kalahh ni anak tere..

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NOV schedule :
1. youth camp (14-16)
2. violin test (23)
3. band competition (30)
4. school test (24-29)

ya ampuuunn. baru sadarr gw klo semua program
yg udah dijadwalkan ma nyox bergelimpangan di bulan Nov
ampe rasanya gw ga kepikiran lagi tanggal ultah gw. xpxp

+ ga bs orkes 3 minggu :
gara2 audisi band, youth camp.
errrgghhh. test lagu biola jg blm lancar.
ancurr.
lagu bandd nya aja br latian sekalii.
mana improvenya aneh sekali
plus mainnya di chord2 yg rada miring
semacem broken chord gituu.
huhuhuu

~kell is soo confused and stressed

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ptama kali dgr, ni lagu pas bgd di kupingg
beatnya asik, bisa dibikin SALSA, JAZZ, Groove dkk
intronya keren. reffnya juga enak bgd.
Thanks to Freddy. buat lagunya. buat liriknya. :)))

"Maafkan aku, bila ku tak sanggup mengerti hatimu
Semua yang terjadi hanyalah egoku.
Kuingin kau tahu.
Andai ku bisa, ingin kubuktikan sesungguhnya aku.
Masih bisa mengerti akan hadirmu.
Yang terindah, di dalam kisahku."

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#1 the band thing

ga pnahh kbayangg bs gabung ama bandd.haha.
tb2 aja bs ktemu.dan yaa.gw iya aja.haha
mskipunn gw bingung gmn caranya mrk minta lat cm 2x?
secara acaranya di LAPIZZ
OMG
udah tauu pake lagu ciptaan dia sendiri
blm tentu cocok ma suara gw.hux.
yahh eniweii, urusan merekalahh.
gw cm dimintain tlg jadi vokaliss nya duank kok. haha

#2 my (love) life is back !

finally i'm soooo over it (him). yippeee! if he likes another girl and wanted a new girlfriend, it's no prob for me. personally, i will never do that, cause i care with my life. i'm not living to love. but i love to live ! : )

#3 quote this

this song is sooo awesome ! it really gets me on the mood !

"Boys boys boys
they gimme gimme they gimme
They follow my voice
Boys boooys
they gimme gimme they gimme"
~ashlee simpson

yup ! a delicate woman doesn't run out of boys .. boys need girls..

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"Hampamu, takkan hilang semalam, oleh pacar impian, tetapi kesempatan. Untukku, yang mungkin tak sempurna. Tapi siap untuk diuji. Kupercaya diri, cintakulah yang sejati."

i know that u like someone now. it's all out of my life.
but i'd still love you, i try to, just as friends.

cause it is more clearer now, since we're apart
we can't stay like this, quarrel all the time.
i wish u the best, for our sake

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i let this feelings come and stay in my heart
tryin' to keep it as long as i can
though sometimes it won't be good for both of us
but i like to say that i still love u
no matter what u do to me

i don't expect as much as i did before
i know that there's no more connection between us
i never know if you really feel the same way as i do
but 1 thing i have promised to myself and to you
i will always keep my love for u forever
as long as i can, as long as it could be
and i still pray for you
each day, each night

*my heart still love you, and it's truly yours, though my words are just not enough for you to believe me like yesterday.*

i miss u>>

XOXO, colla

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