I don't remember
The last time I cried, I laughed

I put all the disappointments in my deepest thought, and left it behind somehow .. before the southern wind came and blew it away.. before my mouth spill it into kind of words..

I don't remember if I ever prayed to God, to send me angels with voices of heaven.. with warm voice, asking "are you okay? let me heal your heart..,"

and it all became blur suddenly..

I ran again, looking where I can find those voices..
I must have been lost somewhere.. feeling dead for days..
And awaken by creepy voices threatening my ears..

I lost tracks, I lost sounds..

I talked and blamed myself.. with tears luring my eyes..
I ended in another journey of collide..

So I wrote this, promising myself, for there will be no more words and voices...

I keep silence, I soil my heart with love and trust..

I won't be alone, for any matters. It's just a different unpredictable way of thinking..

I never know whether it will be easier, or even harder, with these unspoken words of mine..

And I won't ask..

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I'm still here my dear,
In a safe, warm place..
Where angels can't find me..

I'm here now..
Talking to you in distance..
Standing in front of the mirror..

I'm still here, not going anywhere..
I trust you for what I'm doing..
I believe my words won't go anywhere..

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Sorry for the late post,all :p
School's still busy and as a third grade student, I have to deal with try outs, test,homework (of course it's sooo tiring)
Anyway, related to my older post (about my study in uni), I met this consultant yesterday,
Her name is Ms. Melinda. She gave me some test ( some behavior test and the other one similar to IQ test)
and I got the result yesterday.

There are 3 best career written in my result :
1# dentist,fashion designer,human resources
2# PR, or anything related to mass com
3# graphic designer,journalist,doctor

So, I decided to take medicine for my study cause the GTQ result also shows that I'n capable for that.
As my working memory test is 95%, it's good for me to choose medicine. She also added that I'm good with theory too. :)
Well, I hope I can get into uni which I want, there are 2 choices of uni and I don't know which one should I choose.
Between atmajaya and ugm inter :) let's just see!

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