I don't remember
The last time I cried, I laughed

I put all the disappointments in my deepest thought, and left it behind somehow .. before the southern wind came and blew it away.. before my mouth spill it into kind of words..

I don't remember if I ever prayed to God, to send me angels with voices of heaven.. with warm voice, asking "are you okay? let me heal your heart..,"

and it all became blur suddenly..

I ran again, looking where I can find those voices..
I must have been lost somewhere.. feeling dead for days..
And awaken by creepy voices threatening my ears..

I lost tracks, I lost sounds..

I talked and blamed myself.. with tears luring my eyes..
I ended in another journey of collide..

So I wrote this, promising myself, for there will be no more words and voices...

I keep silence, I soil my heart with love and trust..

I won't be alone, for any matters. It's just a different unpredictable way of thinking..

I never know whether it will be easier, or even harder, with these unspoken words of mine..

And I won't ask..

»»»~

I'm still here my dear,
In a safe, warm place..
Where angels can't find me..

I'm here now..
Talking to you in distance..
Standing in front of the mirror..

I'm still here, not going anywhere..
I trust you for what I'm doing..
I believe my words won't go anywhere..

Sorry for the late post,all :p
School's still busy and as a third grade student, I have to deal with try outs, test,homework (of course it's sooo tiring)
Anyway, related to my older post (about my study in uni), I met this consultant yesterday,
Her name is Ms. Melinda. She gave me some test ( some behavior test and the other one similar to IQ test)
and I got the result yesterday.

There are 3 best career written in my result :
1# dentist,fashion designer,human resources
2# PR, or anything related to mass com
3# graphic designer,journalist,doctor

So, I decided to take medicine for my study cause the GTQ result also shows that I'n capable for that.
As my working memory test is 95%, it's good for me to choose medicine. She also added that I'm good with theory too. :)
Well, I hope I can get into uni which I want, there are 2 choices of uni and I don't know which one should I choose.
Between atmajaya and ugm inter :) let's just see!

evening, girls :)

i've been thinking of my study lately, and i'm so confused right now.
actually, i'm really interested for studying medicine, of course because my dad encourages me to.
but on the other side, my mum asked me whether i wanted to study business at shanghai, because she thinks that study medicine will need more time, and also i have to continue master program if i wanted to be a doctor :)
i already calculated it, and if i'm not wrong, it will be 9 years to finished medicine study (5+4). and i admit that it's not a short time. that means i could work and get a salary after i'm 27 years old maybe, lol. that's why my mom considered me to go for business rather than medicine :p

but honestly, she told me too that she's okay if i'm going to take medicine for my study, and she thinks it's great too. :) but i'm not really sure now, what should i choose??

my mum also said if i wanted to study business at shanghai, i don't need to finish my highschool here. i would be very happy to pass my highschool asap, since i'm not really prepared for final test. thinks i'm just too lazy to pass all of these highschool things. lol.



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still don't know where to go, what to decide, dear.

It's pretty clear that i really really love to wear ribbons.
any kind of it, whether it's a bandana, -or anything, i would love to use it for my hair accessories :)
somehow, it makes my fringe looks neat, so sometimes i use it to school too.lols
but i'm not going to wear the big one for school. just the tiny one.
here's some of it

Actually i never know about Jacko's song, and i'm not a big fan of him. At least, before he died. But after the ceremony and all the news coming on every TV channel, i just realize that almost all the people in the world adore him sooo much, even the prisoners. ;)

When i was young and still little kid, my dad watched michael's video clip. suddenly, i saw michael's scary white face, and i started to cry because of scared.
and yesterday, my dad bought a lot of jacko dvd. he watched some of them and asked me to joined him. at first, i'm not interested at all. but tried to be polite, i orderly said yes.


still don't know why-but the fact is michael succesfully influence many people with his stunning dancemoves, and make everybody crazy for him. Of course now i know how cool is his performance, and i really think he's a great person. He's not only good at singing, but also he has a big heart and concernity for people in the world. Despite all his controversy, he did a lot for charity too.

world tour, sweden 97

MJ's kids @staples center

paris, prince and blanket :)

Goodbye MJ . You'll always be the king of pop ;)

always, Victory

1. RED PERLLINI BAG @ og orchard road ($36)
2. WHITE CHARLES & KEITH BAG @ vivo city ($57)
3. MAXI DRESS @ this fashion store, orchard rd ($27)
4. PALE PURPLE MANGO DRESS @ mango, vivo city ($29)
5. SILVER SMOOTH PENCIL SHADOW @ maybelline, watsons ($11,5)
6. BLACK BROW LINER @ maybelline, watsons ($9)
7. No 1 EYELINER IN JAPAN @ maybelline, watsons ($20)

and also some other not-important stuffs that i can't even remember right now :))
this holiday is sooo fascinating . love em :D

finally, i come to bandung with my mum and my aunt. :))
though at first, my mum doesn't want me to go shopping again
*since i already bought a lot of things at singapore*
but when i came to rumah mode this morning, i found this loose dress,
and my mum said i can have it. :)))

i found a tattoo stall at the waterbom food court.
curious about it, i asked my mom if i could have one.
finally she permitted me to have a piece.

so i decided to make it on my left ankle.
it should be more like half wings, as u see the pict
though i personally think it's not that similar


















they also add some stars to make it more like "flying wings beyond the night sky"

monday : cooking . sushi tei . star trek
tuesday : culinary . gym . tennis
wednesday : shopping . pizza . vocal lesson . tennis
thursday : waterboom

say you love me
you know that it would be nice
if you'd only
say you love me
and don't treat me like i was ice
so boy, please love me
i'll be yours
and you'll be mine
if you'd only say you love me baby
things would really work out fine..

PHOTOSHOOT : CANCELED!

ul blok emg belum berlalu, masih ada matematika, fisika dan bio yang menanti.
anyway, we all hope for enjoyable vacation next holiday.
belajar tetep masih, walau pikiran udah kemana-mana.
PHOTOSHOOT, CLOTHES, SINGAPORE- things i just can't wait!

ugh! just wanna finish all these school stuff. and prepare holiday asap.

Song Tittle : Last Chance

Album : Absolute Acoustic

Artist : MYMP

This is my last dance with you
This is my only chance to do
all I can do
To let you know that what I feel for you is real

This is the last chance for us
This is the moment that I just cannot let end
Before I know that theres a chance were more than friends

So don`t let go, don`t let go
Make it last all night
This is my last chance to make you mine

I kept my feelings so deep
I kept my dreams of you and me somewhere inside
Although I prayed that you would see it in my eyes

But this is my last chance to say
Whats in my heart before you stay out of my life
And then youll understand the way I feel inside

So hold me close cause it feels so right
This is my last chance to make it mine
Make this dream reality
So close and yet so far
Gotta find a way into your heart
Gotta speak my mind
Gotta open up to you this time
I cant let you slip away tonight

This is my last dance with you
This is my only chance to do
all I can do
To let you know that what I feel for you is so real

So don`t let go
Just make it last all night long
This is my last chance to make you mine, yeah
To make you mine

*rainbow gladiator*

AVAILABLE AT : PRINCESSA ONLINE SHOP

Dimana harus kuletakkan perisai ini..
Kalau bintangmu tak lagi jatuh padaku..
Jika kau tembakkan pada tempat lain
Jangan kau sasar kembali diriku
Peluru tak pernah salah sasaran..
Dan tak sekaligus memakan 2 korban..


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Mataku tak mungkin terpejam
Sebelum air mataku habis mengering
Terlalu lama menantimu
Yang sedang dimabuk cinta..
Bagilah aku setetes dari apa yang kau reguk
Biar kurasakan badai endorfin kembali bekerja
Dan jika kau terjatuh..
Biar aku tahu rasanya limbung
Tanpa harus ikut terpuruk


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yeyy.i never believe this can happen before.

daddy ternyata mau nemenin shopping, walopun desek2an, sumpek, yaaa u know like what siang2 di mangdu. [even my mom doesn't want to go there =p]

tinggal minta trus bayar, ga perlu lama2 kayak klo blanja sm mama. x)



klo mau jalan2 ato temenin pergi makann jg tgl telfon, trus dtemenin deh ke mall =)

apalagi mum sll sibuk dan g sempet nemenin ke mall [jgnkan ke mall, di rumah aja telfon sll nempel di kuping xp]



thanks for all daddy. i love u. :) :) :)





-->26maret09-->best day ever..